I was planning on making a list of resolutions for this year, but I kept getting distracted by life and now it’s halfway through February and I still don’t have one.
Part of me wants to throw in the towel and not set any resolutions this year. Historically I have a poor track record of actually accomplishing said resolutions, or even remembering I have resolutions… so not setting any is an automatic win, right?
I’m thinking it’s more of an automatic loss.
But I really don’t know what I want to accomplish this year yet, other than to get healthy and that’s what Nerd Fitness is for. The four week challenges are a great way to pick small wins and I really like playing along in the Assassin Mini Quests.
I could just commit to doing all of the challenges and then pick additional non-fitness goals each time… so I don’t have any specific resolutions other than ‘Do Four Week Challenges’. *ponders*
I think this is going to require more thinking…
Rainy Maine Days
It occurred to me today that I have no true life goals. I have a bunch of things that would be nice to have happen, but nothing that drives me with the fear of failure or inspires me with the fire of true callings.
I watch the people who do have that spark accomplish improbable things (it’s only impossible till someone does it) and wonder what my main quest is supposed to look like.
I have nothing worth suffering for. Nothing that gets me up at 4am, nothing that keeps me up past midnight (other than the internet). I don’t even have a goal worth being mildly inconvenienced for.
I’m not sure what to do with this.
I know things that should motivate me, like getting a book(s) published, losing weight and getting in shape, making oodles of money at work, becoming good enough to make decent profits from my artwork, but… meh?
I want something measurable, something where success would lead into the next larger goal instead of being a set end point. Something that I can look back on and say ‘that used to be Impossible.’
I don’t know what that is yet, but I guess I’m going to start looking.
When in doubt… add foxes!
I’ve been spending a lot of time this year working on developing new habits via Nerd Fitness, Camp NaNoWriMo, and Habitica… but so far I haven’t gotten much traction.
I just have too many things that I want to get done and all of them are equally shiny and goal-worthy. The problem is as soon as I set down some firm resolutions on one aspect, another one pops up that seems incredibly more important and I switch targets. If I’m writing, I get caught up in art. If I’m trying to exercise more, eating better distracts me. If I’m cleaning I end up organizing (which are not at all the same thing!). This is very much a lather-rinse-repeat cycle, so I start a thousand projects and finish none of them.
I’ve had lots of very well meant advice about picking one thing and focusing on doing only that… but my brain doesn’t work that way (at all). So it’s time to try something different. Instead I’m going to create a list of the one thing in each category and then try to create trigger points during my day that will remind me to work on them.
Building on my log for April’s Camp NaNoWriMo, I’m going to spend the next few weeks doing some habit forming experimentation and tracking over on this page.
Will it work? Who knows! But at least it’s movement in the right direction… 🙂
2015 Motto: Failing Upwards!
It has been a crazy couple of months since my last update on this list. We’ve moved houses, done emergency dog fostering, rolled up our sleeves and started prepping the old house to be a rental, and waded into the mess of unpacking before getting new roommates– whew!
So now that things have settled down a smidge, it’s time for me to start looking back over the list and see just how far I have left to go… (hint: walking to Mordor seems more plausible a goal at this point)
But never give up, never surrender!
2015 Motto: Failing Upwards!
As a recap, this year I’m going to do things right and not lose sight of what I’m trying to accomplish. That means every month I sit down and go back over the list of 12 Things that I want to accomplish this year… So time for the monthly check-in!
Which, I’d like to point out, I actually got done on the 1st– even if it is well past my self-assigned bedtime. So, erm, victory? (Someday I will master this whole ‘Being An Adult‘ thing, but not quite yet.)